i'm scar to grow up

I'm scared to grow up

I feel these last few days I put my self in a bubble and trying with all my heart not to grow up

but I'm 

and this life is continuo either I want it or not

please life

be kind with me

I'm just not an adult yet and I don't know how to be one

yes I'm independent strong women but I still don't wanna someone called me an adult

is that weird?

see, I think the expectation from the parent, siblings, and society kill me and put me in a situation where I truly don't want to be an adult