LIFE

i'm still stuck in this weird mentality  , i don't know how to handle all these change in my life 

life is going so fast and i don't know how to handle it 

my anxiety increase every single day 

i know i shouldn't think this way 

but it's my brain 

I still want to be above average but i'm not , I still below average 

why? why should I compare my result and my best with other best !! we all different 

It's suck wallah it's suck i'm trying to never look back and always be positive and trying my best 

but here i''m wasting my time by writing and doing nothing except of feeling low about my self 

can i take a deep breath and nerve go back ! can I ? 

god ! please stay with me , i'm just so tired to live ! i'm just so scared of my future , i don't want to even think about it !!